I hope it’s okay that I address you in this way. In this moment I picture having this conversation with you in a coffee shop.
That long awaited conversation. One from someone who held judgment and should have stood beside you in your struggles. One who’s heart aches of the weight you carried your entire life.
I do not speak to lighten the weight of the first sin. But to say “ Mother I weep with you.” A lot has been said of you, placed on your shoulders, manipulated in your name. Last night as I sat with my sisters discussing you in our study, so much more of the story was revealed. So much truth spoken to my heart from scripture I had read countless times.
Let’s start with the fact that you dear sister walked with God. You had a moment so many of us long for. That face to face. That supernatural presence that can not be duplicated. And it was ripped away, in one moment. You mother who never knew pain, hate, anger. Who scripture tells us the deceit you are often blamed for, was not something that was placed in you when God sealed you and your helpmate away in the garden. That the totality of what was done was not revealed until Adam too ate the apple.
“Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they realized they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and made coverings for themselves.”
Genesis 3:7 NIV
No one speak of how your first reply to the serpent was “God said not to.”
Eve, I am sorry that we use your sin against you, as we cling daily to our own as if it doesn’t break Gods heart just as much. I am sorry that we forgot the part that even after, God provided and loved you no less.
I reread your testimony. The strength…my God! To pick yourself up and experience an entirely new existence. To bear a child with no one there as you endured the pain. To watch your husband struggle to provide. One moment mother. But yet all
you endured. To then lose a child at the hand of the other. To lose two gifts from God in one moment. Ones you had praised him for not long before.
So here we are. Dear Eve…you may have shown us the first sin, but you also showed us so many more first. Courage, strength, resilience, devotion to name a few. Thank you for carrying so much weight for your daughters.